ME , MYSELF AND I

Wednesday, January 20, 2016

Fucking Failed my dream BTO!

Super Ultra Angry.

Singapore HDB core is to provide a dream home for their citizen to stay.

Whenever i wrote an email to them, they ask me to try on puggol instead. Is that really my dream home?

Fuck them . I damn fucking piss off and i got nothing to rant to.

Fucking cunt.

Please dont tell me your fuking result because it p i s s m e o f f ! Keep that shit to yourself. THanks

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

New Year, New dreams

2013 is finally here! 

Found someone special for myself and hope that things would be different from now onwards

Monday, December 17, 2012

Life


This weekend is one of the hardest to get through of the year. One of my beloved family members has passed away. Nevertheless I always think that everything happens for a cause and using another point of view, leaving us doesn’t mean a bad thing for him too. I just feel bad when seeing my Grand mom cried and couldn’t do anything.

So why am I posting this video of Mayday called 你不是真正的快? Because I loved one of the lyrics at the end of the video: 什么失去了 要被惩罚  ?


 Don’t you think sometimes life is a bitch? Why you lose something so important in your life and still got to suffer from it? Guess this is life. Still gonna post this phrase I saw on one of my customer MSN: Love the life you lived, Live the life you loved. How hard is that? Another one of my friend told me that she wish to get out of this country to somewhere nobody know her and start all over again. How I wished I can do that too but just that I cannot bear to live my grandparent and parent behind.


 Guess my energy is using up soon and tired with the entire smile to exchange for people bullshit again and again. I think I need a holiday soon.This weekend is one of the hardest to get through of the year. One of my beloved family members has passed away. Nevertheless I always think that everything happens for a cause and using another point of view, leaving us doesn’t mean a bad thing for him too. I just feel bad when seeing my Grand mom cried and couldn’t do anything.


So why am I posting this video of Mayday called 你不是真正的快? Because I loved one of the lyrics at the end of the video: 什么失去了 要被惩罚  ?


 Don’t you think sometimes life is a bitch? Why you lose something so important in your life and still got to suffer from it? Guess this is life. Still gonna post this phrase I saw on one of my customer MSN: Love the life you lived, Live the life you loved. How hard is that? Another one of my friend told me that she wish to get out of this country to somewhere nobody know her and start all over again. How I wished I can do that too but just that I cannot bear to live my grandparent and parent behind.
 

Guess my energy is using up soon and tired with tiring to make everyone happy and hiding my own emotion to exchange for people bullshit again and again. Sigh … I think I need a holiday soon. 


Monday, January 23, 2012

Vietnam Trip From 12 -17 Jan 2012

Wishes every a Happy Chinese New Year!! Hope it will be a great Year for me! ORD LO!
Well this post is going to talk about my Vietnam Trip from 12th to 17th of Jan 2012. I think we will talk in day by day style will be easier to understand.

Member: Jia hui, Xie Weijie, Jasmine Low, Jocelyn TAN

1st Day of Vietnam Trip

During the first day of the trip when we just board the plane, Jocelyn seat beside me. When the plane start up the engine and suddenly, the plane’s light flicker and make us both scare like hell. Haha and the rest of the plane trip I was sleeping like a pig. When I reach the airport it was still OK for me until when I board the private car arrange by hostel to fetch us to HANOI Hostel. When I looking around road to Hanoi, I was a bit disappointed because it was not what I was expected but well cant complains such too.

When we reach the hostel, which was the time I got a shock of my life! My dslr just died off! That make my two ball boil up! After that, my friend (TIN) cousin which is the hostel owner told us that we need to pay for the private car from hostel to airport as the promotion is either pick up or send off. BULL SHIT ! But I still somehow ok with it (12USD) as I wants a pleasant trip and do not wish to quarrel at the start of the trip.

We went on to find Jasmine dream food, PHO! We reached the place where the hostel person recommends that we can find good PHO there. When we reach there we order what other is having as we cant read the menu provided. Although it is not what jasmine wanted but it taste GOOD!

We visited place like Ho Chi Minh Museum, one pillar pagoda, temple of literature, water Puppet show and Quan Ann Su food center! What shocking is when we travelled on taxi from temple of literature to Quan Ann Su Food center which the taxi fare Jump FASTER than my heart beat. Got scam by 5 min of taxi ride cost us 150K dong. FML! That end our day !


Pho!


Fanny Ice Cream


Group shot at Temple of literature


2nd Day of Vietnam Trip

During the second that of the trip, We woke up around 7am for breakfast at our hostel Roof Top Bar. The breakfast at Vietnam is almost the same for us everyday. Bread with egg and coffee or tea was the breakfast there. At around 8 am, a Van came fetch us at hostel to our journey to Mai Chang.

The trip consists of 7 people in total
4 of us, 1 Australia woman, 1 Korean woman and an interesting Japanese uncle!

Once we reach there, we had our lunch over there. Was quite tasty comparing to Han Long Bay food (You will see it later). After lunch and settling down, we continue to our cycling around the village. Of course I didn’t cycle so I sit with the tour guide on a Bike around the Village.

The interesting Japanese uncle is 64 Years old but while cycling around, he keep on telling us he is still young and just 64! Haha. And he cracks a lot of joke for us to laugh. Beer was his medicine. haaha

After the Biking quest, we basically do nothing (a little bit of shopping) until about dinner time where we help to make some spring roll. After dinner……. WE DO NOTHING AGAIN! Totally Boring!

Again, we get scam again as the white Thailand dance is not included and we didn’t get to drink beer with the villager. At this point of the time, I lost 50% faith on Vietnam already.

We talk cock with each other and learn each other country life style till 11pm and END OF DAY 2!


Place that we stay in


ME ON A BIKE!



Our bed in Mai Chau

To be continue! too tired. LOL!

3rd Day of Vietnam Trip

During Day 2 sleeps, it was very very cold at that time due to the floor is make up of bamboo only where the cold air from 1st floor blew up to us. Never theless, we still woke up at 8 am for our breakfast! As usually, the breakfast was Bread with egg and coffee or tea. Next we went on for our MOUNTAIN CLIMBING SECTION! Total steps for the mountain was around 1200 steps and was 300m high! That was one hell of a experience for me as I climb until there smoke coming out from my body haha.

After that we went to visit the real MAI CHAU (the place where we stay in was hai something haha) where small kid was laughing at me for being fat and stuff. Explore around the village and we walk around 4 km back to the village for our lunch. That the end of our mai chau trip and we went back to Hanoi on our 4 hours bus right again!

When we reach Hanoi around 7 pm, we proceed on to Dong Xuan Night Market for some shopping and eating spree! I experience more of Vietnamese rudeness power over there where people push you away using their hand when block his way without saying excuse me or anything. Just PUSH HIS/HER WAY OUT! Damn piss off but only can suck my own thumb. Had a German sausage and a kebab for dinner that day and make a few key chain pillows for my friend. We also had some dessert at the road side store for 20k Dong which I think we got cheated but we decided to act normal and don’t think about it ahaha. Dao bao stir fried Corn back to hostel to eat.

That end my day 3 of my Vietnam trip!


SUCCESS OF CLIMBING MOUNTAIN!


Me Eating desert at the road side store!


4th day of Vietnam trips

At fourth day, we proceed to my long awaited location, Han Long Bay which mean the descending dragon bay. We board a private bus where we travel 3.5 hours of ride to our location. Until now, I still remember our 1st tour guide name is called Tank. Quite knowledge able where he explain to us thing about Hanoi like there 4millions population in Hanoi but there 6 MILLIONS bike there WOO! And 70 percent of the people in Vietnam is farmer and that explain why we can see farm everywhere!

When we reach our location, it was a bit of raining and it was super duper cold. But I saw other tourist wearing slipper and berm there and coping the cold well. We were spit into different groups where we and another family of 4 from Denmark following another group. Now our new tour guide totally speak good English and even better than any of us! And after conformation, we proceed to a small boat where will bring us to our home for the night!

After we reach our boat, we were settle down with our room and stuff and we were going to have lunch. The lunch a kind of sad where the food was sucker than Singapore hawker center food but for a person like me who eat most anything that is edible, it was still OK. But for my dear friends, they were complaining and complaining but I can understand why they were complaining as we pay 68 USD PER PAX for the trip.


Our Han Long Bay Boat:)


Picture of Han long Bay


After lunch, we visited a cave where we walk around to see see look look. Nothing much inside but as usual, we would make ourselves super high and run walk around. Haha. After the cave, we proceed on to kayaking where all of us decided to skip due to the cold weather. So we went on back to our boat to have our dinner. Needless to say, it was not very tasty again ahaha.

Group Photo at the cave

security Guard on duty :(

But after the dinner where I think I enjoy the most was the squid fishing! When the tour guide shows us how did he fish the squid. It looked damn easy where he caught one less than 3 minutes! But that was the only squid caught that night ……. EMO!
After a long time of unsuccessful fishing, I decided to use the net of the ship to net the fish. I caught the first fish followed by jia hui and jasmine and lastly …. JOCELYN TAN! She was the most funniest fisher I saw in my life time where she use confuse by us on the timing to scoop up the fish! In the end, she used around 30 minutes to catch one! CONGRAT! After a long day of walking and fishing, we went to bed! END OF DAY 4!



Our catch !

5th day of our Vietnam trip

We woke up at around 6 am for the sunrise as the tour guide said that that was one of the options we could have. But waking at that time, we were shock that the mist is too thick that the sunrise was block by the mist. Another disappointed part of Vietnam.

We decided to believe in the tour guide one more time and we pay each pax 100k dong to visit the cave and feeding the monkey on the mountain. When we reached the location, we were change to a rowing boat as motar boat is not allowed. When we visited the mountain around, its was very quiet and peaceful but when they started rowing closer to the mountain and starting to wait for the monkey to appear, the boat woman told us that THE MONKEY WAS SLEEPING SO WE CANT FEED THE MONKEY! Totally WHAT THE FOOK FOR US SIA! There goes our 100k worth of dong ….. hhaaha .

Sunrise shot :(

Group photo after a big disappointment from the monkey

We Love H-Han L-Long B-Bay!

After we went back to our boat, we had our breakfast and that was the best breakfast I had in the whole Vietnam trip (at least something good huh). Was bread with egg and bacon. Then we were asked to check out our room and we were separate from the group as they going for 3d 2 N where we would be heading back to mainland.

After we reached the mainland, we went for our lunch where we walked 20 minutes to our location. I shall not explain in detail what happen as the tour guide was totally a bitch!

We went back to our hostel and we head out immediately as it was our last night at Vietnam. We went on to buy our Crumpler and Coffee at old quarter. We brought some KFC and hail a cab to Quan Ann Su where we visited before at the first day for our final Dinner. Had a lot of food over there and each person cost less than 10 dollar Singapore dollar if I didn’t remember wrong. After that we cab back to our hostel and went up to the bar counter to eat our KFC and drink tea/coffee.

My favorite CHAO CHA!

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Indonesia Trips

After being picked by my squadron to PEKANBARU in Indonesia for oversea duty, I know that is another get away trip for me to really think again what I really want in my life. This is the second time of my life that I will be away from my comfort zone for more than a month and with a down hearted feeling.

Well I experience a lot of things over here like massage, clubbing, drinking and most importantly is the life style of Indonesian. Pekankabru’s pricing of everything is not as cheap as what people might think of for an Indonesia country. Everything is either around the price of Singapore item or things like clubbing and drinking are even more expensive than Singapore.

But after staying with my teammates: Puven, Marshall, KK and Ian make me experience life of different bases but same job scope. But I decided not to compare with them as if I really do, I will be in hell. I can see that how people can behavior here where they got a family back in Singapore but play like hell over here. Indonesian people really gain my respect as they starts to work at the age of 9? Or maybe earlier? Just by selling newspaper or toy at the road side helping out their family. Which I believe that Singapore kid won’t be about to compare to them at such an age.

After talking to different people, I learn that to complain less if you know that you have to be it no matter what. I think this is really important to me as I am a naggy person in nature. Hahaa. I celebrated birthday in Indonesia with a surprise cake by my teammates which I felt care and concern by them. I really had to thanks them for making it happen.

I come with down hearted feelings which happen to be the same girl affects me before my India trips two years ago. Lucky or not, is different feeling felt compare to two years ago. This time is jealousy and a bit of Inferior than “him” than heartbroken. A lot of thoughts go through my mind during this trip and make me think why I have such feeling involve. Well hope that when I back to Singapore I will have a better life than what I used to have!

Not much to say but continue when I got time

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Friendship




In a clique of friends, there are bound to have A leader, Joker, person that make fun of others and people who get make fun of. The clique cannot afford any of the role or it will break off


There are some other factor that why a clique will be form and normally is because of Boy - Girl - Relationship. This is a different ball game from the above quote i typed. Normally the guy will be the leader of the clique while the girl will be the one who always got make fun of.

Usually the guy or girl (couple) will be very "ON" about this clique of friendship and they will organize outing 24/7. But if either one of the so call couple is not free, the outing will somehow cancel which i always do not know W - T - F the reason is.

The weird thing is no matter how much the guy disturb the girl, she would not be angry at all (or maybe just act a bit).

BUT IF you make fun of the same girl, you will confirm receive the hell out of her.

Sadly if there is a love problem in the clique and they break off or quarrel , 99.99% of chances that the clique will be disband.

At this kind of quarrel situation, there bound to be a guy/girl which will feel cheated and cry like hell while his/her heartless panther will act like nothing happen and go find other clique of friend.

Being a good person (in a sense), the cheated one will normally look for joker in the clique for companion (I guess is because they can make him/her laugh during the hard time). When he/she felt better, he/she will also leave the clique and look for another LOVE SUMMER!

The MOST sad thing is, I was never the Leader in this kind of situation.

So in the end what do Joker get?

1. Lost of Friend to go out with (Due to disband of clique)
2. Emotional change because you will always think that why the heartless panther can enjoy him/herself while the other is heartbroken.
3. Lack of sleep because you have become the spared Tire
4. Felt Cheated because they will just leave you once they get over with it.

In the end who actually remembered and Aapreciate what the Joker does for the clique?

Noone

LOL . Awkwardness .

Thursday, April 14, 2011

天使の恋



Story:
17 year old high school student Rio (Nozomi Sasaki) is always the center of attention due to her beauty. Yet, Rio has never cared about anyone but herself due to her traumatic past. Her friends and boyfriends exist only so she can use them for her gains. Rio is only interested in money.

Then one day she meets 35 year college professor Kouki and falls in love for the first time. Rio feels confused by her emotional change and expresses her love to Kouki honestly. Although Kouki becomes interested in Rio there is a reason he can't pursue the relationship ...


I watch 天使の恋 before i left for work today. I always remember a few phrase i will remember for every nice movie i saw.
"I change my dress, hair style, nail colour, attitude, character and i tried to study. Because this is the way i express that I Love You."
Alot of people say that they do not know how to express love. Actually everyone know how to express because is the little thing that one change but is the one they loved never realize their change of thing/attitude toward them. And the changes they make is the way that they express their love to others...

All i can say is .... Please notice the people around you. Is not that they do not care/love you, is the way they express is different.

After a long time, i finally started talking to someone i used to care about long ago.

I always feel that I got this problem that I cant solve. I would not dare to interact with others once there some dispute specially with girls. A lot of people said that is because i just that kind of person which will think a lot when there a problem. That why I feel better as I felt that I picked up the courage to talk to her again. But when I meet her out for lunch, I feel that there something in my mind that I cannot just be myself. I speak like not what I am. Hmmm maybe this is the problem I wants to solve this YEAR! lol